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belly envy. i want to know when i'll start showing. i'm 6 months and one week (i believe) and i am still not showing. i'm beginning to worry she's squished in there like a zit. i've only gained 12 pounds (as of last tuesday) and i'm in an awkward stage. people think i'm nuts but i'm not used to having a belly of ANY kind. and now i have one. it's not big or anything, not like the majority of pregnant women, but i'm used to being very skinny. i do have a waddle. moving certain ways is difficult, but not to the point where i should be. i mean, she has to go somewhere, and i want to know where. she has to be all squished up. it just makes me worry. it's ridiculous because everyone says everything is fine. but i'm not growing! i was just looking at pictures of this woman. she's 38 weeks pregnant. she's been taking pictures for a long time, through all 3 trimesters. i look like her when she just started to grow a belly. believe me, i'm not saying i want to get all big and pregnant. i just have belly envy because people have bellies. and i have what looks like a belly losing or gaining weight. i feel awkward around people. because i wear baggier clothes and you can tell they wonder why. but damnit. its just frustrating because i still don't feel pregnant. my mom asks if my back hurts and it does, but it has always had pain in it. ever since our accident. just grr. my parents are leaving on friday for their wonderful trip to greece. they'll be gone 2 weeks. i'm still not sure where the money came from for this trip, but whatever. they are out of my hair for 2 weeks. i'm tired. but i don't feel like sleeping. i should have been in bed hours ago. sometimes it's hard to sleep. argh. i'm leaving. Miss Anything? |
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