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sadness like a heavy blanket.
2002-12-12 | 12:51 a.m.

i can't help but feel unimportant in the big picture. i don't know what's messing with my head this way besides the depression i've fought off. i wonder if it's because of the lack anti-depression medication for the past 3 or 4 days. my head feels like its in this fog that gives everything tracers when i move my head.

and i remember why i used to say and do drastic things to get people's attention. because that is the only way to get peoples attention. you can be pooring out the most vulnerable, naked, scared part of you, and they will just... not pay attention. or worse. they fall asleep. and then it confirms every bad feeling and thought you had from the beginning.

and the worst part of it all is. i don't know what to do to feel better.

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