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5 weeks old. i don't know if i mentioned sarah's ear in the last entry. how it was scraped and scaley. i mentioned it to the doctor in the hospital, at her 1 week check up, and then again at a month. he finally gave me some ointment to put on it. well, wednesday, i had to take her back to the doctor because it started bleeding and it cracked along where it meets her head. this time, the other doctor gave me this other ointment, an anti-fungal steriod type deal. so now, i have to put on the other ointment and this new ointment on, alternating each time, 3 times a day each. she screams like i'm killing her each time. and it's still cracked and looks sore. i'm going to give it a few more days. it looks better, just not a ton. who knows. she's now 5 weeks old. which means this week i get to go back to the obstetritian for my 6 week check up. i don't know what to expect. but i'm not expecting it to be pleasant. my moms going to come because i'm getting put on birth control. which should be fun. sarah has started making more noises, besides crying. and she's started to smile more. i'm still not sure if she realizes she's doing it. they seem more just random. so, no first smile or anything yet. i think she's going to start walking and stuff earlier than everyone else in my family has. we've all been late walkers and stuff. but she always wants to stand, though she still needs support. and she loves to hold her head up. she flings herself around like crazy. she's really strong. sometimes, she'll stiffen her legs and end up standing up. it's amazing. she definitely has to get that from josh's side. no one on my side is very physical or strong or anything. she still wants to be held when she's sleeping, but i'm slowly working on that. i ran into one of my sister-in-laws friends and she said 2 out of 3 of her children are that way. they are just very cuddly and clingy. sarah is definitely that way. i'm trying to get her to take naps and stuff without me holding her, and it's not too successful. she will sleep in her swing or bouncer by herself, but not on my bed or her bassinet. somedays it feels like an uphill battle, though. because as soon as she's sleeping by herself, and it's going good, something happens, a dog barks, whatever. i feel sad less often, it's just worse when i do feel sad. i'm sick of medication. but i almost feel like it's a must. i'm feeling less and less like myself and more and more like the sad drone i used to be. i'm breaking this entry apart. this diary will be for baby things. other things will go in my long time diary, the one i had before this one. so if you want to, you can head over to there. http://silentgirl3.diaryland.com. Miss Anything? |
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